I never thought that having a baby would be so wonderful. She is the most beautiful, sweet and loving thing I could of ever imagined. But I also never thought i would be this tired!!
So, what happens when what I need is completely opposite of what she needs?
I am sick, i have a cold that has my head feeling like there are a dozen little men with hammers pounding on my skull! And when I brought Elyzabeth home early with me on Tuesday ... and all i wanted to do was sleep...sleep... sleep. And all she wanted to do was play with Mommy! So, i did something that at the time was the only hope i had... i put her and a TON of toys in the crib, and then i went to bed. I feel horrible... everytime tehre was a noise she would yell, "Daa..Daa" then when i didn't answers she would cry for 30 seconds and then play with her toys.
I just feel like a bad mom when i have to put my priorities above hers. And yet, it is necessary sometimes for me to just worry about me. I wish somewhere there was a book that told me how to act, what to expect and where the line between good mom and bad mom is drawn.
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